I play Left 4 Dead 2 with my friends; Mincus, GoodOlPsycho and Sekushipantsu.
I miss a lot of things, like Australia and BBQ’s. At the same time I miss a lot of people, like my family and my friends back home. One thing I don’t miss however is the way people use me as their doorstep, their punching bag, their stress relief ball and so on….
I used to take shit from a lot of different people and it wore me thin to the brink of depression. I thought if I could get away and start again in a new place with new people, I could rebuild my sanity, my confidence and my happiness. Sadly however I have learnt that you cannot run from your problems. That it doesnt matter where you are in the world, people will find away to make you feel an inch tall.
Now I’m not saying that everyone in my life is out to get at me, in fact I know that those few who do make me feel like a waste of space, aren’t doing it maliciously. I have always been the person that people could come to and open up to. No matter the problem, I was always a sympathetic ear and shoulder. Unfortunately for me, nice people are always the ones who get burnt. It went from being there to listen to other peoples problems to being indirectly responsible for them. It would seem just by breathing I made all their problems a million times worse and in turn I copped a lot of abuse. I had nasty rumours said about me, I was both physically and verbally abuse by so called friends back home, that I began to think I was the worlds most horrible human being. So desperate to find happiness and peace, I quit my job, I quit my uni degree, I said goodbye to my family and I move 10,500 miles away to a fresh start.
I now have a new home, a husband, in-laws etc but yet I’m still not completely happy. For whilst I shed a lot of negativity from my life, I still manage to find myself copping crap from people. It’s not my fault. I didnt do the thing to you. I didnt make you feel this way. Don’t send abuse my way and except me to bend over and beg for forgiveness over my incompetence to be all-knowing and all-caring. Don’t drag me down to your level because I didn’t know you had a problem or you were feeling upset etc. I’m still human after all. I still have my own problems too. Maybe sometimes I need you to be a shoulder or an ear for me. It kills me that there is only really one person in this entire world that I can truly trust.
All I ever wanted was happiness. Something that every other hump who draws breath wants. Friends, family….I know you have problems, I have them too. Just please, I beg of you, don’t make me feel like I am the problem. I may be all smiles on the outside but you’ve almost virtually hollowed out the inside. If you don’t stop and think about how you’re making other people feel, then I’m sorry, I’ll be boarding the one-way train to Huskville.
Best bit about the Nintendo E3 Conference!
Anyone feel like being super generous and splurging out to get me a WiiU on release day? No..? Yeah I didn’t think so. Still, one can dream!
Just finished watching the Nintendo E3 conference where they showed off some new games for the Wii U plus gave a quick over view of the WiiU itself and now all I can say is: “Oh how I want a Wii U!”
A black Wii U to be exact! I already own a white Wii here and a red Wii back in Australia, so now I want the black Wii U. Plus the black Wii U gamepad looked so much sleeker and more stylish. Not that the looks or colour have anything to do with how a game performs or anything, it’s merely because I think black looks nicer.
I’m also excited for some of the new games coming out on the Wii U such as; Super Mario U, ZombiU, Scribblenaughts, Pikmin 3, Just Dance 4 and NintendoLand to name a couple.
I seriously need to start saving, or win the lottery, or something! I want a Wii U so bad now. The only thing that could make me want one even more is if they suddenly announce a new Zelda game coming to it, which after Skyward Sword last year, won’t happen for a while.
Ahh well, one day I will own a Wii U….One day.
When a girl needs someone.
I’m pretty sure this is the greatest bit of advice ever dispensed. I know the biggest thing people fear when they embark on the journey of “youtube” is “what will others think of me?”. Spoiler alert, you will always be the ugliest, stupidest, dumbest, fattest, worst ___________” in someones mind - no matter what you do, how you do it or how you look in the process. The internet, as in real life, is a place where flawed people rejoice in the mocking of other people’s flaws. When you know who you are, nothing they say can hurt you. Not online, not in life, not anywhere.
Sent to me by my good pal Shammoz, in response to my previous blog. This setup has me drooling a little. So sleek, so shiny, so beautiful:
I follow a few pages on Facebook and I can’t help but get envious of people whenever their sweet setup’s appear in my news feed.
I don’t know who you are, but I’m jealous of your setup. Just this morning I was greeted with this totally awesome dual setup:
Whoever these people are, they are lucky sons of bitches in my opinion. It just looks so beautiful.
Then there is this lucky person, although to be honest, I wouldnt have used a yoga ball as my seat ( done that once before, hurts after a while)
And then lastly this one. The caption that went along with this person’s photo was ‘my modest build :P’
Seriously, I don’t know who you people are but I just have two questions for you:
Who are you? and why aren’t we best friends yet?
I will make it one of my many goals in life to possess a setup as sweet, if not sweeter then all three examples I have shown you here today. All that is left for me to do now is win the lottery!
Firstly, I’d like to thank everyone who joined us on our teamspeak last night to help us mock the Eurovision song contest. We had a lot of fun checking out contestants, criticizing their outfits, laughing at the name Englebert Humperdink and having OMG moments with songs.
I had an enjoyable night full of drinks and laughter. I managed to polish of 7 drink by the nights end, and I enjoyed every last one of them with Shammoz, Warum and everyone who was drinking last night (memory is indeed fuzzy on who was actually drinking last night).
I was very happy when my favourite performing country; Sweden won the contest. A victory well deserved! Plus I thought Loreen (the singer) was kinda cute so double win! Although her dancing was a little strange, I got to admire she did it without flashing thigh high legs or boobs or butt to gain popularity like other countries *cough* Greece* cough.
Either way I had a fantastic night last night and even managed to successfully piss a friend off back home by announcing Sweden’s win before the contest was aired in Australia. Mean I know but I was drunk and happy at the time, so I still maintain it was worth it.
I’m in the process of making some Purple frozen jelly and I cannot wait to tuck into it! For those of you out there that have never experienced the awesomeness that is Purple Frozen Jelly then you are currently missing out and I strongly urge you to go to your nearest supermarket, buy some purple jelly, go home, make it, put it in the freezer, wait for it to freeze and then tuck in!
It’s awesome because its cold and icy when you first eat it (which is good for warm/hot days) and then it begins to melt in your mouth and starts to turn into the gooey feeling of regular jelly.
You can of course make it with any flavour jelly you wish, Purple (aka grape) just happens to be my favourite for freezing as it has a stronger flavour in my opinion.
At the moment, mine is freezing but for a kick I added a splash of vodka to the mix to give it a kick! I don’t encourage the consumption of alcohol at all but if you’re wanting to make your frozen purple jelly time more exciting AND you are over the legal drinking age then by all means, spice it up with some vodka or other alcoholic beverage you think appropriate and ENJOY!
So go out, and make some…NOW! :P